weird laugh

nothing can explain what I feel right now....
tired,annoyed,sad,being motivated(a bit),too focused(or ignorant?),envy,neglected,cheer my self up,and so on....
somehow I feel that luck doesn't want to come to me....
meanwhile I want to end it soon and go away from that place as fast as I can....
but why chance seems so far away?
I did many mistakes,I know....
perhaps this is the result because of those wrong things that I did....
still,I want to pass this annoying circumstance soon....
may I have that luck?

 

this?that?

helloooooo I'm back!! :D :D :D

oh ya,,there were sooooooooooo many events happened during my holiday(eww??)

actually I shouldn't call it as holiday because I have to finish 2 important things during the semester holiday season...hyak!! :p

first,you know lah ya saya harus rampungin itu yg namanya skripsi.sedikit curcol boleh lah yaaa,, :p (curcol po ngeluh ki???).jdi gini,saya sdg stuck and in between of ambugious situation.the schedule goes back to the unclear time again,so I have to be yaaa a little bit a sugar coating person in order to "encourage the lecturer" to revise and advise things that I had done so far.see, not only students who are supposed to be encouraged!!haha :p...yhaaaa sdkit ngemis gpp lah ya DEMI selesainya ini skripsi,since my topic isn't sophisticated or even the marvelous one so I have to be a bit taugh in encouraging and assuring the lecturer.hahaha!!! :p

second is about ummm how should I call it,some kind of students' conference project I think. nah, this one becomes one of the "test" to finish my first responsible. since the project looks like a conference, everything should be in well-prepared,so I have to prepare this and that and these and those and whatsoever in order not to ruin anything on the D-day.aje gile program rodo abot kalo nggak ada persiapan yang semacam baik sekali iso dicuthat saking program'e kula.hehohehoheho!!but the most interesting part of this program is that by joining the program I can get MANY THINGS that I haven't had or known before. starts from the vision-mission-philosophy-and consistency of my univ,then characters of each member,dealing with some of important but annoying people,until the problem which previously I didn't know and I don't want to know. sooooooooooo many and interesting.jadi nggak sabar nanti pas disana-nya kyk apa :)

actually there are tons of things happened, but the hottest and the most up to date from me ya cuman itu tadi.hehohehoheho,,basi yes??[embeeerrr!!!],,cuman yaaa begitulah.intinya excited tapi jg mak-ngeeek(??) gitu... :p,,yah semoga habis ini bisa cerita2 lagi dan sharing2 lebih banyak :)

see you!!

tot ziens ^,^

so what if I'm a bit "flat"?

"you should be more sensitive with that and blah blah blah."
"my goodness,can you understand the affection?blah blah blah."
"oh,c'mmon,that's poetic!!"
  
are you familiar with those advices???
for me,I'm bored with those trashy advices!
I'm not that harsh or soemthing,but really,let me be me.so many people told me that I should be more blah blah blah which aren't the real me.perhaps that is true in some cases because I respect others more and be more nice!!wait,what kind of nice that you meant there,eh? do I have to be sugar coating and pretend that I like you all for sure???

once again,I'm NOT a pretender.you might be hurt directly but that's much better because I can't stand with those fake courtesy or kind of poetic words and so on. indeed I'm a bit uncomfort when people say some exaggerated words,like they want to be romantic-cool-or whatever you call it.in the end,their words are just making me sick.still, others will blame me because I'm too rude and unrespect for those who try to be kind of me.

I respect those who try to treat me good and something,but just don't be exaggerated or even overact.it's just sick to see all those fake stuff but they misunderstood about that.they want others understand them but why they seem so difficult to understand me?even I don't ask much,really. 

whatever you say,I'll say: YES,I CAN!

recently,most of my friends and I(of course!) are busy with our thesis.actually, we don't need to spend our energy a lot because we still have some of our seniors have in the same problem with us.the difference is that we(my friends and I) don't like delaying some important things. are you sure that you(me) and your friends don't like such kind of things? well,at least I don't like that. besides,I've spent a lot of my parents' money ONLY to get good education. do I have to delay the important things,again and again and again??? I don't think so.

during my study in univ, I have met a lot of people with a lot characters. some of them bring positive energy,the rest are just awful.they bring nothing but troubles.well,life is about trouble isn't it?no trouble no mature people.some problems are not that complicated to be faced, but the rest are extremely hard to be faced. one of them is about being underestimated.I admit that sometimes I understimate others, but that's for jokes not for serious circumstance.one thing that makes me shocked is there are some people who really underestimated others.only because they are older than me,(they think that they are)smarter than me,(they think that they are already)professional, and so on.if they think that they are already become a highly compentece people, why they keep doing such low competence stuff?

many people understimated me a lot,can't be mentioned how many they are. :p,,but seriously, I was a bit shocked,afraid,and unconfident in doing something at that time(well,I guess 'til now).especially they always blabbering that things that I do aren't so important and useless.then what happen now?things that they do are MORE USELESS than me.see,karma is existed.what I can do right now,is finishing that I can finish as soona s possible.I'm tired with those people and tired to study longer, :p,since you know I'm not that smart to handle sucha a marvelous things.well,all that I can say is YES,I CAN FINISH 'em all by myself and not begging from others.

Utama VS Pendukung

Bila menemui kata "versus" atau lebih dikenal dengan singaktan VS, pasti ada sesuatu yang dibandingkan ataupun berlawanan dalam suatu tulisan atau berita. Judul dari post ini, Utama VS Pendukung, mungkin terasa "klise" karena pasti sudah atau apa yang dibandingan, yakni yang utama dan pendukung. Tapi, apa yang utama dan apa pula yang pendukung dalam post kali ini yang akan dibandingkan?

Masih membicarakan tentang negri Belanda, tentunya, yang mungkin tidak akan habis dikupas tuntas hanya dalam satu artikel saja. Kali ini yang akan dibahas adalah mengenai hal-hal yang bekaitan dengan pendidikan. Jika dikaitkan dengan judul postingan, pasti sudah bisa menebak apa yang akan dibandingkan disini. Yap, betul sekali, hal-hal utama versus hal-hal pendukung dalam pendidikan. Hal utama disini lebih menunjuk pada sistem pendidikan itu sendiri sementara hal-hal pendukung yakni fasilitas pendidikan. 

Di negara semaju Belanda,sistem pendidikan bukanlah hal sepele yang dilewatkan saja dalam penanganannya. Disana sistem pendidikan diatur sedemikian rumitnya agar kualitas peserta didiknya mampu berkembang potensinya sehingga dapat memberikan sumbangan berarti bagi negaranya. Sistem sekolah semacam VMBO,HAVO,VWO,MBO,HBO,WO dipilah se-spesifik mungkin agar peserta didik yang masuk ke sekolah-sekolah tersebut benar-benar bertanggung jawab akan pilihannya dan berhasil mencapai apa yang menjadi cita-cita mereka (Netherlands Education System). Kompleks? Jelas,Kreatif? Tentu saja. Tidak semua negara begitu memperhatikan hal sepele seperti penggolongan pendidikan anak berdasar minat dan bakat mereka masing-masing, sehingga berakhir dengan si anak memilih jurusan yang salah karena dorongan orang tua. Di Belanda sedari anak memasuki jenjang pendidikan yang paling dasar, mereka diarahkan untuk memilih apa yang menjadi "kesukaan" mereka. Jadi ketika mereka memasuki pendidikan tinggi,mereka tidak pusing-pusing memilih jurusan sekolah.

Setelah memilah sistem pendidikan yang lumayan kompleks,di Belanda fasilitas pendidikan tidak hanya berakhir dengan fasilitas yang hanya mendukung seseorang untuk mau masuk sekolah tersebut dan lupa akan tujuan awal pendidikan itu sendiri. Fasilitas lebih ditujukan kepada kemampuan peserta didik mengkakses bahan pembelajaran melalui sarana yang memudahkan mereka untuk mendapatkannya. Di era globlaisasi seperti sekarang, internet bukan barang baru bagi orang pada umumnya. Begitupula dengan dunia pendidikan, internet sangat besar manfaatnya untuk mengakses bahan belajar yang mungkin tidak didapatkan dari penjelasan guru di kelas. Di Belanda, akses internet dibuka seluas-luasnya agar para peserta didik dan juga staff pendidik mendapatkan sumber belajar tanpa batas (Internet and Education in Netherlands). Sehingga jangan heran, di kota paling terpencil sekalipun anak-anak yang bersekolah datang di kelas dengan membawa "sesuatu" untuk didiskusikan dengan guru mereka masing-masing. Lagi-lagi inisiatif yang kreatif dimunculkan agar seluruh lapisan masyarakat di Belanda dapat menikmati haknya dengan penuh.

Sementara banyak di negara-negara lain yang menjadikan fasilitas pendukung sebagai "pemikat" agar orang berbondong-bondong menyekolahkan anaknya di sekolah "mahal", di Belanda justru tidak berlaku hal yang demikian. Contohnya, pemerintah Belanda mendirikan gelanggang olah raga terpisah dari sekolah. Sehingga kegiatan ekstrakulikuler benar-benar hanya sebagai kegiatan tambahan dan bukan kegiatan yang menjadi "keharusan" dan sejalan dengan kegiatan pembelajaran. Ada baiknya memang bila pemilahan sistem pendidikan dan pemilihan fasilitas pendukung sistem pendidikan tersebut dijadikan wacana untuk memperbaiki sistem yang sudah ada, khususnya di negara kita. Tidak hanya berorientasi pada kata "internasional" dan "mahal" tetapi haruslah mengacu pada tepat sasaran tujuan pendidikan itu sendiri.

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after you see that video,what do you think about TUHAN,GOD,GUSTI or what ever you call it?

sometimes you will try to explain with some logical words that TUHAN is exist.
don't you know that those words aren't enough to explain the existence of GOD.
sometimes illogical stuff might tell the existence of GOD.

saya nggak ahli memang soal perTUHANan,cuman jadi keinget beberapa hari lalu saya ngobrol dengan orang antah berantah yang baru saya kenal hari itu juga(wew!).
si orang-nya itu ngomong seperti ini,
"saya yakin kok mbak apapun agamanya,tujuannya cuma satu yaitu kedamaian.kenapa kok tujuannya satu? ya karena semua itu Tuhan-nya cuman satu.kalau ada yg "kebetulan" di agamanya dikenalkan dengan "banyak Tuhan",menurut saya itu warisan tradisi aja mbak.lagian kalau dibilang sesat,banyak kok sekarang yg nyoba2 untuk mbelokkan macem ajaran dalam suatu agama,maklum pada kurang kerjaan setres jadi bikin "lapangan kerja baru".hehehe,becanda mbak yg terakhir.tapi yg awal2 nggak becanda lho."

tadinya aku mikir, iki wong yho podho le setres po yho? :DDD
tapi pas orangnya cerita2 lagi soal beberapa hal sehari-hari,ternyata orangnya normal kok.hahahahaha! :p
terus apa hubungannya dengan video yg di post? o.O,,
menurutku videonya itu netral(hah?kan yg nyanyi GIGI?? :o).maksutnya liriknya netral,yah walopun nuansanya merujuk ke salah satu religion tapi yg tak perhatikan itu liriknya.
dari awal sampe akhir nggak ada yg menunjuk ke satu agama tertentu kan? :),jadi yah buat yg kangen "ketemu" sama Gusti boleh lah jadi salah satu sarana-nya. :D


kesasar itu nggak enak.yah mungkin awalnya enak karena bisa tau hal2 yg sebelumnya nggak tau dan bisa sekalian nyoba.
tapi pas udah keseringan tau,malah jadi bosen karena itu2 melulu yg di "makan".ada baiknya kadang2 cuma cukup tau saja,nggak perlu sampe nyoba dan malah nyasar.
cuman yaaaa orang sendiri2 ya "pegangan"nya,jadi it's up to you. :)

cliche stuff

what I'm gonna talk is about,yeah,you know thesis-skripsi-tugas akhir-or whatever you call it.

all of my friends(including ME!!!!!) are getting nuts because of a thing called thesis.

indeed this is ONLY for obtaining bachelor degree,but I wonder why thesis in my study program looks so complicated compare to another study program.

mbok yakin tenan,kok kayaknya tu di tempat saya ADAAAAAAAA aja alesannya untuk berkata tidak pada topik ato judul yagn ditawarkan oleh para mahasiswa.

entah kita yg terlalu goblok ato dosennya memang udah kelewat pinter,serba salah kalo ngajuin judul yang "itu tu nggak penting" ato yang "so what???".

a lil bit being underestimated??I guess,,but dunno if they were in uncomfortable mood (eehh??) or yaaah,dunno exactly.

just hopping that everything will be okay and end soon....[hoaaaahhhh],,,

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