well,

sometimes it's difficult to differentiate between confident and exaggerated

and it's also difficult to distinguish between optimistic and disparaging

what should we do?

how come to be humble in good way is extremely difficult?

how can we be confident without being exaggerated?

and how can we be optimistic without disparaging others?

hmmmm......

life is (still)fair

there is a time when someone can get something that he or she wants
and there is a time when someone can't get what he or she wants
meanwhile, no one can get everything what they want
there is only one choice for a lot of choices in our life
IF you can get everything that you want, well, congratulation
but if not, that's the truth....

sometimes we think that life isn't fair for us
but, how can you say that?
what about those who can't eat in a day?
what about those who can't drink fresh water?
what about those who can't have place to be with their family or friends?
what about those who can't have place to have a rest?
what about those who are'nt sure they can see tomorrow, take a breathe, see the sunlight, hear the birds' chirp, feel the wind blows, and walk in the land?
what about those who can be honest with them selves?

at the end, life is fair...
if you think that you're poor, take a look at the people who can't eat
if you think you aren't happy, take a look at the people who lost their family/are separated from their relatives/are discriminated
if you think that you're not pretty/handsome enough, take a look at the people who have disability in their body
if you think that your life isn't worthy, take a look at the people who are dying
if you think you are useles, learn from somebody who can survive and struggle although they aren't rich/smart enough
if you think that you aren't perfect and too complicated, take a look at the people who can live their life simply and humbly

the fairness of life depends on how you can see it closer
use your eyes, heart, ears and mind thoroughly
then do something with your hands, legs, and body sincerely
be "a useful" person for others is more than just be a perfect creature in this world
and always be greateful for everything that you have right now, even it's the bitter one

marvelous of Asia

hello hey hoooo...I've just joined a univ program called Global Leadership Program which was held in Sophia Univ, Japan. the program's participants were from 5 Jesuit universities in East Asia. I was so lucky to be participated in that program since I didn't know anything about that kind of program, lolz, and that was my first time to go abroad.wohoo!! :D
the program was held on August, 5th - 11th 2012 and although it had ended still it gave me a lot of experiences and challenges to improve myself better in the future. well, I don't want to brag a lot about that program but that's true, the program was soooo challenging because it asked serious thinking in the middle of my mixed up mind. haha,I was thinking about my thesis and at the same time I HAD TO think about the presentation in that program and so on. at least I had done my best, well not really my best too, but it still needed lots of improvements though.
the important part of the program was broadened the friendship with people in somewhere out there :DD,,it was fun so far. although the bitter was also occurred, still some sweets happened through it. rock on!! :D

Passengers

we are the passengers

from nowhere

gather in a very huge ark

we sail everyday to see

different seas of different continent

when the journey is complete

we say goodbye for a moment

but someday we will see each other

sail and go to the eternal sea

together

thank you so much guys for the good time in marvelous country, sharing, laughing, and so on. see you around someday :),, \m/

weird laugh

nothing can explain what I feel right now....
tired,annoyed,sad,being motivated(a bit),too focused(or ignorant?),envy,neglected,cheer my self up,and so on....
somehow I feel that luck doesn't want to come to me....
meanwhile I want to end it soon and go away from that place as fast as I can....
but why chance seems so far away?
I did many mistakes,I know....
perhaps this is the result because of those wrong things that I did....
still,I want to pass this annoying circumstance soon....
may I have that luck?

 

this?that?

helloooooo I'm back!! :D :D :D

oh ya,,there were sooooooooooo many events happened during my holiday(eww??)

actually I shouldn't call it as holiday because I have to finish 2 important things during the semester holiday season...hyak!! :p

first,you know lah ya saya harus rampungin itu yg namanya skripsi.sedikit curcol boleh lah yaaa,, :p (curcol po ngeluh ki???).jdi gini,saya sdg stuck and in between of ambugious situation.the schedule goes back to the unclear time again,so I have to be yaaa a little bit a sugar coating person in order to "encourage the lecturer" to revise and advise things that I had done so far.see, not only students who are supposed to be encouraged!!haha :p...yhaaaa sdkit ngemis gpp lah ya DEMI selesainya ini skripsi,since my topic isn't sophisticated or even the marvelous one so I have to be a bit taugh in encouraging and assuring the lecturer.hahaha!!! :p

second is about ummm how should I call it,some kind of students' conference project I think. nah, this one becomes one of the "test" to finish my first responsible. since the project looks like a conference, everything should be in well-prepared,so I have to prepare this and that and these and those and whatsoever in order not to ruin anything on the D-day.aje gile program rodo abot kalo nggak ada persiapan yang semacam baik sekali iso dicuthat saking program'e kula.hehohehoheho!!but the most interesting part of this program is that by joining the program I can get MANY THINGS that I haven't had or known before. starts from the vision-mission-philosophy-and consistency of my univ,then characters of each member,dealing with some of important but annoying people,until the problem which previously I didn't know and I don't want to know. sooooooooooo many and interesting.jadi nggak sabar nanti pas disana-nya kyk apa :)

actually there are tons of things happened, but the hottest and the most up to date from me ya cuman itu tadi.hehohehoheho,,basi yes??[embeeerrr!!!],,cuman yaaa begitulah.intinya excited tapi jg mak-ngeeek(??) gitu... :p,,yah semoga habis ini bisa cerita2 lagi dan sharing2 lebih banyak :)

see you!!

tot ziens ^,^

so what if I'm a bit "flat"?

"you should be more sensitive with that and blah blah blah."
"my goodness,can you understand the affection?blah blah blah."
"oh,c'mmon,that's poetic!!"
  
are you familiar with those advices???
for me,I'm bored with those trashy advices!
I'm not that harsh or soemthing,but really,let me be me.so many people told me that I should be more blah blah blah which aren't the real me.perhaps that is true in some cases because I respect others more and be more nice!!wait,what kind of nice that you meant there,eh? do I have to be sugar coating and pretend that I like you all for sure???

once again,I'm NOT a pretender.you might be hurt directly but that's much better because I can't stand with those fake courtesy or kind of poetic words and so on. indeed I'm a bit uncomfort when people say some exaggerated words,like they want to be romantic-cool-or whatever you call it.in the end,their words are just making me sick.still, others will blame me because I'm too rude and unrespect for those who try to be kind of me.

I respect those who try to treat me good and something,but just don't be exaggerated or even overact.it's just sick to see all those fake stuff but they misunderstood about that.they want others understand them but why they seem so difficult to understand me?even I don't ask much,really. 

whatever you say,I'll say: YES,I CAN!

recently,most of my friends and I(of course!) are busy with our thesis.actually, we don't need to spend our energy a lot because we still have some of our seniors have in the same problem with us.the difference is that we(my friends and I) don't like delaying some important things. are you sure that you(me) and your friends don't like such kind of things? well,at least I don't like that. besides,I've spent a lot of my parents' money ONLY to get good education. do I have to delay the important things,again and again and again??? I don't think so.

during my study in univ, I have met a lot of people with a lot characters. some of them bring positive energy,the rest are just awful.they bring nothing but troubles.well,life is about trouble isn't it?no trouble no mature people.some problems are not that complicated to be faced, but the rest are extremely hard to be faced. one of them is about being underestimated.I admit that sometimes I understimate others, but that's for jokes not for serious circumstance.one thing that makes me shocked is there are some people who really underestimated others.only because they are older than me,(they think that they are)smarter than me,(they think that they are already)professional, and so on.if they think that they are already become a highly compentece people, why they keep doing such low competence stuff?

many people understimated me a lot,can't be mentioned how many they are. :p,,but seriously, I was a bit shocked,afraid,and unconfident in doing something at that time(well,I guess 'til now).especially they always blabbering that things that I do aren't so important and useless.then what happen now?things that they do are MORE USELESS than me.see,karma is existed.what I can do right now,is finishing that I can finish as soona s possible.I'm tired with those people and tired to study longer, :p,since you know I'm not that smart to handle sucha a marvelous things.well,all that I can say is YES,I CAN FINISH 'em all by myself and not begging from others.