"you should be more sensitive with that and blah blah blah."
"my goodness,can you understand the affection?blah blah blah."
"oh,c'mmon,that's poetic!!"
are you familiar with those advices???
for me,I'm bored with those trashy advices!
I'm not that harsh or soemthing,but really,let me be me.so many people told me that I should be more blah blah blah which aren't the real me.perhaps that is true in some cases because I respect others more and be more nice!!wait,what kind of nice that you meant there,eh? do I have to be sugar coating and pretend that I like you all for sure???
once again,I'm NOT a pretender.you might be hurt directly but that's much better because I can't stand with those fake courtesy or kind of poetic words and so on. indeed I'm a bit uncomfort when people say some exaggerated words,like they want to be romantic-cool-or whatever you call it.in the end,their words are just making me sick.still, others will blame me because I'm too rude and unrespect for those who try to be kind of me.
I respect those who try to treat me good and something,but just don't be exaggerated or even overact.it's just sick to see all those fake stuff but they misunderstood about that.they want others understand them but why they seem so difficult to understand me?even I don't ask much,really.
recently,most of my friends and I(of course!) are busy with our thesis.actually, we don't need to spend our energy a lot because we still have some of our seniors have in the same problem with us.the difference is that we(my friends and I) don't like delaying some important things. are you sure that you(me) and your friends don't like such kind of things? well,at least I don't like that. besides,I've spent a lot of my parents' money ONLY to get good education. do I have to delay the important things,again and again and again??? I don't think so.
during my study in univ, I have met a lot of people with a lot characters. some of them bring positive energy,the rest are just awful.they bring nothing but troubles.well,life is about trouble isn't it?no trouble no mature people.some problems are not that complicated to be faced, but the rest are extremely hard to be faced. one of them is about being underestimated.I admit that sometimes I understimate others, but that's for jokes not for serious circumstance.one thing that makes me shocked is there are some people who really underestimated others.only because they are older than me,(they think that they are)smarter than me,(they think that they are already)professional, and so on.if they think that they are already become a highly compentece people, why they keep doing such low competence stuff?
many people understimated me a lot,can't be mentioned how many they are. :p,,but seriously, I was a bit shocked,afraid,and unconfident in doing something at that time(well,I guess 'til now).especially they always blabbering that things that I do aren't so important and useless.then what happen now?things that they do are MORE USELESS than me.see,karma is existed.what I can do right now,is finishing that I can finish as soona s possible.I'm tired with those people and tired to study longer, :p,since you know I'm not that smart to handle sucha a marvelous things.well,all that I can say is YES,I CAN FINISH 'em all by myself and not begging from others.
